Saturday, July 24, 2010

Always a misfit, always an alien...

Fragrance has lost its scent,
enemies lie everywhere without sense,
every face is a mask unread,
every battle requires courage, not dread,
life has lost its meaning,
there's no more pleasure to sing,
soul is drying up, it really is,
beauty is diminishing, eliminating bliss,
happiness is fading, flowers are withering,
sorrows are dancing, thorns are pricking,
world has changed, why cant anyone see ?
everyone is a stranger now, even a humble bee,
paths are lost, feelings are frozen,
change yourself into others, or you cannot perish,
I stand alone, I refuse to turn into one of them,
what I don't understand, I will not perform,
always a misfit, always an alien I say ;)...!!!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Beginning of a new end...

I need to start, I need to fight,
maybe all I want to do is write,
I need to cross this pool of shallow,
in search of something that I can wallow.

If random thoughts are brought to life,
why do we still suffer the fright,
if all I do is sink in morbid vacuum,
escaping from it requires more than re-routing.

Building aimlessly castles in sand,
searching for something, searching for a hand,
no where to go, don't remember where I came from,
no where to look, its just blurry like a thunderstorm.

I wonder if I were any different than this,
would then my confusion be any simpler ?
Would then I'd have a future, a plan ?
Would then I'd have something to call my own ?

But that which is not me, is not my own,
that which is anything but me, I better suffer than call it my own,
I would've choked, if I were any different,
I would've been common, if I were to change.

And yet I change, and yet I don't change,
and yet I've lost that which was in me,
and yet I try to redeem myself,
but there is no starting, and there is no end.

I'll walk and walk, till I can walk no more,
I'll talk and talk, till I can talk no more,
I will think and think, till I can figure it out no more,
I will live and live, till I can live no more